Mike Simon.

Are you single, married, or hooked up with a someone? Me getting married... Yep if you haven't been paying attention I am with my soul mate I love him dearly.. (Currently in spots)

How I met him I was going out with anther guy at the time and shifting going to move to Idaho.. He came from CO married to "it" his son recently died then and he needed to see his sister apparently he was separated with his now soon to be ex. (hes getting a divorce).. His sister used to be my best friend (issues is all i am going to say) and I was living at her place at the time. His sister didn't approve my relationship with the guy I was going out with then and "tried" to get Mike (my soon to be) and myself together..

Trust me it ALMOST worked! Mike and I had our own little world .. we didn't leave each others sides ever.. It was like we where hooked together.. I helped as best as I can with his dealing loosing his son and the complications of his idiot of a wife. It was the happiest 2 weeks ever in my life...

Then he left. He didn't say goodbye nothing.. He didn't want to hurt me (so he said now) and well I was so depressed I couldn't fathom loosing my other half.. WEEKS his sister tried to cheer me up.. then things happened fast and he was never forgotten... He was always there in the back of my mind wondering always how he was doing.

 I moved to Idaho... for 3 years. I ended the relationship with the guy i was with then, went out with anther guy (not my choice at the time long story) and then that didn't go well. i went back home Vancouver Washington (so pissed the fuck off with men I was starting to hate them) I was on the phone with a good friend of mine that lived up north.. haven't talked to her in years.. well she said she had just given birth to a little girl and named her Nevaeh(Mike has a girl named Nevaeh...) She asked me what Nevaeh stood for and I just went silent and told her "Heaven backwards .. need to talk to you later, I have to find someone"

That's when my balls where bigger then his and I found him (little searching) on FB and whispered him. We talked for weeks like we never missed a 3 or 4 year beat. he told me he is getting a divorce from "it" and well he couldn't stand me living in WA and him in CO and he sent me a bus ticket to CO where i am at currently...

And that bus ticket? Its framed people sitting here on my night stand to remind me.. Love is never too far away. -Be good to yourself.

They breed them people.. I FUCKING HATE MY GENDER!

Its not a secret that I cant stand my gender... in my life I seen destruction and hatred that they be stole on the male gender and I have to stand there and watch it happen.. When the male gender hates me because of my uterus and there past. I have to constantly tell and show and prove that I am not one of them.. Many years I have shown proven and just out right done things to help the male gender.. I have had this feeling since I can remember and become recast against my god damned gender.. Few women I can sit and talk to and become "friends", and a handful of you women are family in my eyes.. you know who you are.

but I tell you what rest of you women can just take a hot fucking poker and shuv it up your god damned god cunt and kill yourself from it .... you all make me fucking sick and embarrass me to know end I cant even look at you with out wanting to torture your god damned ass and hang you off a fucking spike with your head bleeding from it .... allow you to suffer the shit you have put the male gender threw I want you to go threw it 10x fold...

Two reasons why I am writing a blog tonight ..

One John... Him and I grew up together(hes my street brother) his mother is a meth addict and is one them women that I cant stand.. I raised his little brother also... He married my little sister (she is family in my eyes) she has problems with insecurities and well my little sister is sitting in her apt fucking freaking out... I dont blame her... Her husband (my brother..John) is in jail.. Let me educate you on John.. John became a SO (sex offender) when he was a teen .. it has been proven time and time again he didn't do it. But the state of WA says different and will not lift it... Well he dose not hide he is convicted SO he makes sure he registers with the state and makes sure he dose not have anyone under the age of 18 near him unless he has someone (like my sis and I and her father) are around... They gotten a next door neighbor .. she is 14 living with her recast grandmother (they are black folk) the 14 year old kept coming around .. I went to go stay with my little sister and her father when I returned from hell... and I kept seeing this little cunt bitch hitting on John and always glued too him wanting to fuck him eyes... I didn't like it ... I told my little sister to keep an eye on it.. Weeks past and my little sister went to her mothers for a bit ... I watched this little dumb bitch keep knocking on the door my brother was at the school at the time and I kept telling her he was not here... she was getting fucking annoying.. I even lied and said he was not there.. when he was.. then when I told John take care of his little twat fan.. they both went to the back room... I was not happy about it and then something hit me.. I walked to the back room.. I saw the little bitch touching John sexually(John trying to get her off of him mind you) .. I looked at John and bluntly told the little bitch to get the fuck out of the house... I told John that i was not thrilled ... I told him not to have that little bitch in the fucking house again I am not comfortable.. to make it iron clad I told my little sister father ... not comfortable.. sister came home.. I didn't explain to her why I don't want little bitch near this house.. But all I gotta say to her was I am not comfortable with her here... Now after 5 months not being in the house .. My brother is in Jail... Because of her... She told the cops that HE WAS HITTING ON HER AND TOUCHING HER IN UNCOMFORTABLE PLACES!! and "grooming her" WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! Not even the case! I watched her hit on john when she was there touching him and kissing him and John looking at me with the "help me eyes" Plus John is too loyal to his wife... if he wanted to cheat on her he woulda CAME AFTER ME! he is very aware of the stakes of violating his parole...

Two.... Mike and I have to move to Oregon

Yeah, his divorce is in Oregon now.. I have said plenty of times I cant stand my gender... But I am not gonna say a god damned word right now .. I am too pissed about this too put it in words ... Be good to yourself

Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roomate .. Take 1

Why? Why in the fuck do people think I am quiet and a push over? I am nice and I am very respectful to everyone (my motto is: i don't have to like you to have common respect for you... If i dont have something nice too you, you don't exist in my world and I will ignore you .. or tell you stay away from me ) and thats what i am doing with my Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roommate. he dose not exist until he forces his self into my world.. My cool ass roommate is out of town so its the three of us.. talk about war zone.. I tend to stay down stairs (stairs kills my back) I am quiet and Mike mind his own Business also when he has to go up the stairs to the war zone .. Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roommate (if you haven't read my other post about Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roommate.. go read it and you will understand why I have that title for him)


I have a bad Pet Peeve.. You are gonna act like a Idiot STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! I don't give two gay god damned rats ass's what your problem is ...ITS NOT MINE so stop your shit and take it somewhere else..Its your choice to destroy yourself and the people that care about you... THIS IS NOT MY PROBLEM... I am done with your shit ... stay the hell away from me.

Well, I didnt go to sleep until like 4 pm this afternoon (woke up at 12:30am due to being sick as fuck... people call it morning sickness "I call it a wake up call of fuck you I am bitchy.") I gotten woke the FUCK up at 7ish pm of two people yelling upstairs. Mike yelling as Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roommate yelling right back. I have medication in my system so you must yell pretty fucking loud to wake my ass up.. I flew out of bed PISSED.... I shouted so loud I think my Neighbors crossed street heard me WHILE I AM DOWN STAIRS.. "Enough is fucking enough knock you two's petty shit off right this moment!" Mike said something to me I didn't hear him.. I said my fucking piece... I been silent for 3 god damned months and I am finally fucking done.... I shouted to Mike while Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roommate heard me also I know he did ... I said what was on my mind quickly like... Then I am founding out they where spitting like two alley Tom cats OVER A GODS DAMNED TOASTER! Yeah woah back up .. Mike made his tuna melt thingy and he went down stairs for a moment and Tweeker Masturbating idiot roommate .. moved it... SERIOUSLY! OMFG really why is this happening?! Then a big ole huge fight over a couch that Tweeker Masturbating Idiot Roommate bought for US when we moved down stairs in retrospect Mike watching his kids last weekend! I told you Petty people.. I gotten woken up FOR THAT SHIT? So I called cool ass roommate left him a real nasty message.. while waiting for his call.. I called my  father in law(cool ass fucker I love him ) I needed to calm down I just smoked two cigs... in 10 mins ... he was trying to calm me down .. I was not having it ... Then I went inside and said loud enough everyone "until cool ass roommate calls me back... I am going to be a Bitch if I catch people down stairs that aren't supposed to be down stairs I am calling the cops!"

anyways .. I went to Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate.. after cool ass roommate text me .. I made him read it.. I told him "if you have a problem with Mike take it up with me.. This is fucking bullshit.. You are acting like fucking 3 year olds! If you need to go down stairs then you need to ask me!.... anther thing is that you need knock off your shit... I dont like you right now BUT I AM ADULT ENOUGH TO CHOKE THIS DOWN TO TALK TO YOU! fucking test me again and see what fucking happens... I heading to bed good night!"

Tweeker Masturbating idiot roommate been acting like he dominate of this house going around trying to test Mikes pateince and mine.. well... after I shouted my point... he found out that is not true and that silently I am dominate until my cool ass roommate returns and his house and I will respect that and give him his spot.. But i am done... I am going to put up with this shit anymore... If he tests me again not only will I put him in his place.. I will make sure he will feeling like shit for a long time.... Be good to yourselves

I am not your typical female. I lock my doors for your safety, not mine.

I been sitting here thinking .. three days .. I have had about enough...

so I am going to write it out. I moved to Denver Co.. to be with the man that shines the light in my blacken heart 5 years ago. I will live the life I deserve. Do I regret my past.. FUCK NO! why would I? I learned many lessons.. and still learning my lessons.

Now, I was raised with guys.. I prefer that thank you.. I cant stand my gender (very few women I can handle ) I am very used to most guys life style.. I learn much from all sorts of guys .. young and old no never mind to me... they dont bother me. Since I have lived here in this house with my soon to be and my two guy roommates I have to smile.. I am not your typical female...

I caught one of my roommate's masturbating in our game room(he had no shame apparently and want to get laid by me)... yes people I caught him... was i scarred for life? ...nope. (maybe if I have to have tons of sex with my soon to be to get that horrified image out of my head.) All I did was walk away like I never saw him .. my stomach was all sick feeling.. But it didnt bother me .. One because I get laid with the best man ever when ever I want.. and him... he such a fucking retarded idiot he cant laid if he even had one sitting there wanting to use him as a human dildo. But my idiot masturbating roommate's cousin (the cool roommate ) and my soon to be is not seeing it like I see it ... I know Idiot masturbating roommate's game... He so jealous of my soon to be.. I am the only female in the house and why cant my soon to be share god damned it??? LMAO. Two reasons .. One) I wouldn't touch the idiot roommate if my life depended on it(even when i was single not gonna happen).. even when I am drunk as fuck it wouldn't cross my fucking mind... two) not going to happen in my life time.... LOL his kind is the reason why I didnt have have sex for 2 years ....remember I learned my lessons????

There is anther fact why I wouldnt touch this  idiot masturbating roommate.. He is acting like a tweeker ... the worse fucking tweeker on this earth. He started to smoke "spice"(if you dont know what that is its fake weed that has the same properties as meth) three months ago and he gotten worse day by day.. He looks like a meth addicted he treats his children like shit and is going after my soon to be like a pit bull on rabies ... yeah to keep my soon to be in check is getting harder and harder day by day... So, tweeker idiot masturbating roommate has acted on upon himself that this is "his house" and is trying to treat everyone in this house as such ... he keeps telling his children such and it has finally gotten on my god damned nerves.. this fucktard has yet to pay rent on time(if ever pays it) and then act upon himself that he domanate over me of all people telling people I am the house bitch (mind you I have to clean up after him and his children constantly) his consistencies of his roller coaster mood swings has finally gotten me pissed the fuck off .. I tried to talk to this man  in my "small" voice telling not a good Idea to piss me off .. Not listening .. anywho day before we moved down to the basement ... he YELLED at my soon to be over a QUESTION and offer of help. So my soon to be had to over ride tweeker masturbating idiot roommate and build a dark room for a plant that need 24 hour of darkness .. Mind you my health is now in danger because of the fucking fucktard.. 2 hours in this room sent my asthma in full swing and my back legs and knees HATED ME... finally we get it finished.. I wake up to "we are taring down the dark room due to we are going down to the basement "(mind you we been begging Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate for this spot due to he sleeps upstairs (and masturbates) and so dose his children.. finally we got it??? yeah what?!) I LOST IT .. I woke up PISSED THE FUCK OFF! I said "THIS BULL SHIT!" So all day I helped my soon to be and Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate to move down all our stuff! In the end result I broke my upper hips my back is fucked up I sit here crying in pain at night when my soon to be is sleeping... thought it was just plane over this drama crap I can finally sit down stiars in nothing but a ICP t-shirt.. uhhh Nope! yesterday tweeker masturbating idiot roommate took it upon himself to "pick " the lock to my door and help himself to what the fuck ever.... Mind you this is not his first time trying to "peek in" my room while he thinks Mike and I are having sex or we are sleeping THIS IS THE THIRD TIME THIS FUCKTARD DONE IT TOO ME .. then when I thought I was fucking tweeking myself Mike (soon to be) comes home PISSED THE FUCK OFF and tell me (just woke up by then lol) that Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate called him WHILE AT HIS WORK and cursed him out so hard Mike just lost it at work... enough is enough ... shit hit the fan yesterday.. I mean Mike lost it kinda deal and I sat ther pissed that Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate BROKE in my room yet again .. Mike told our cool roommate EVERYTHING that is going on. the disbelief on our cool roommate and the feeling i got from cool roommate was PISSED... I went upstairs to clean up the filthy kitchen and plus to calm down ... then all I heard was fucking shit while cleaning ... and i blurted out "i am done mike, i am not comfortable here anymore .. we pay off cool roommate and I want to go home" that sent my cool roommate off like no ones business and well to cool down Mike and I went for a drive ...(got pulled over lmao cute ass female cop though and gave us a warning ) Our cool ass roommate went off on tweeker masturbating idiot roommate... (dont ever piss off an Mexican ) Our cool ass roommate told me if i ever feel uncomfortable in this house let him know and he will deal with it.You know I wish I was a fly on the wall yesterday ... He assured us that he not kicking us out (cool ass roommate) We came home little on edge and went down stiars and Mike slept while I felt like a tweeker myself and couldnt sleep (cant trust a tweeker masturbating idiot roommate) Mike woke up this morning and I am awake.. he looked at me shocked as hell I am still awake at 7:00am and I told him i am paranoid and go get my 10 year old pepper spray(instently i went to sleep by then) .. so he did and just worried about me ...  So sitting here by my bed is my prepper spray people...

if that mother fucker comes down here for other then getting his fucking shit out of our plant room. I am going to spray that fucker bad .. I am not messing around then I will make him wish he never breathed ... I am going to fuck the fucker up .. I dont give two god damned rats asses who the fuck he is .. I will loose it.I know me.. I lock my god damned doors for you all's safety not mine.. I have three black belts and I tell you what I proven that I can kick the living shit out of my beloved in front (Mike gotten too drunk and thought he could piss me off) of my roommates and then before that kick the living shit out of Mikes cousin for trying to take advantage of me.. I am not messing around ... Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate has anther thing coming if he fucks with me.. I had enough.. I will loose it no man will ever treat me like shit again. I wake up with the instinct of killing someone.. I was RAISED that way (remember grew up around men) and that never dies.. I have to tell my brain that certain people are not a threat .. ask my soon to be how hard it is to wake me up with out looking at him like hes a target. I have almost killed my ex husband for going after my son and I did this in my sleep .. he almost died.. So with my background and such do you dare to wake me up or try to brake into my area?? if you where smart enough you would leave me the fuck alone and let me wake up with pure silence. Be good to yourself

This is for you.... do you think I was born yesterday?

Hello people.

all right to them that are not in this drama dont worry about it .. I got 2 people here that think I was born yesterday ....

Since I banned you from not only my web site and my FBs I been thinking and I am going to respond to your shit... One of you I known for years I have raised you basicaly and you keep digging yourself in a deeper hole and expect me to save you.. I cant thank you enough for everything you have done for me.. I called you family because I protected you as such.. I stood beside you when people where on you like flys on rice.. undieing loyality... what do you do? LOL I have to laugh because you have done this shit to so many people and I am finally the last one you can shit on... You threw me away every since you getting married to a man that can be your father. Yeah I saved you from him also.. remember when he got so drunk he pulled a gun out on you.. WHO THE FUCK was there to take that fucking bullet for you? WHo was the one that told him if he ever layed a hand on you agian I will kill him? WHO? who was the one that kept being there for you when men constently raped you ... constently people on your god damned ass.. is this how you repay me??? LMAO I WARNED YOU ABOUT YOUR MOTHER! you know what really fucked up? You would rather listen to your mother and not stand by your own flesh and blood... you know i have LEGAL evadence that your mother MADE YOU HOOK FOR HER LIFE STYLE AND YOUR FATHERS! and you still talk to her? (personally she ever comes near me I will throw her ass in jail for the warrants she has).. did you know she almost killed you in Oregon and your sister? I have this legal evidence.. and you worship her like she done nothing wrong.. Well your bother needs you and all you do is believe shit that is not even close to true... Know what.. i am going to do what you do with everyone that is now useless to you.. STAY THE FUCK AWAY from me.. I will slap the shit out of you if you come near me  Think I am joking you are no longer welcome near me Nova...I dont want your drama .. your lies and your bullshit.. Bring your drunk ass BF near me and see what happens... I am not going to play this game anymore.

Jennifer.... LMAO Is all I am going to say too you... You knew who I was and still you tried to Manipulate me to believe your side of this drama.. Naah I know your kind real well.. you friends with Mikes family? yeah we knew long ago you where still BEST FRIENDS with his mother.. go ahead... I dont care... Mike dose not want to be near you... he just wants his children to see them.. But you keep thinking like Mikes mother and try to hurt him.. Well deary I know you and Nova are best friends.. I dont care.. Because Karma... is all I can say too you. You have no clue who you just talked too.. I know Oregon real well.. my home state.. and if this case dose go to Oregon? LMAO I hope so! really I do ...  So I have to be nice too you .. why because... Mike told me I have too... Just be done with yourself.. You cant win this one my dear... If you just fallowed your court order .. this shit wouldn't happen.. But .. its ok .. do what you need to do to try to convince everyone that your innocent.. YOU ARE NOT. you are a coke whore and would rather slut on the street corner for that shit.. and THEN BLAME IT ON MIKE.. LMAO addiction dear... sad your truly sad... and you wonder why I cant stand my gender.

with that ... with these two people.. everyone bare witness ... two females that manipulate and lie to get men in trouble and act like they are innocent.. they sleep with men to get either money or drugs. They make the men almost kill themselves for there selfish greed... I hate my gender people for these two simple reasons ... I cant stand people in general like these two people.. I for one have lived with both distruction and a woman that did these exact same thing.. I swore on my life I would NEVER be like these women... I will stand by people (men mainly) that have to real from there destruction. Time and Time again I have help men mainly from people like these two ... Now I am saving my life mate from this.. My final act of protection.. I would do anything for him ... and I have .. I went threw the crap I had to "act" like them.. It made me so sick to my stomich that I couldnt sleep I had to detox literately I'm going threw a professional to get help.. because I had failed my oath to not be like these people.. I almost lost Mike once and I am not going to allow it happen agian.. I would do anything for this man ... If it was not for Mike.. Constantly telling me he loves me and he yelled at me to stop he got everything he needed to know... I would of went back to drinking and doing my drug of choice... I was very close.. I was very close to ending me... I would of went back to my "old" ways and people that knows me real well.. Knows just knows thats not a rout I want to take again... I came real god damned close to doing just that.. Just one phone call and I would of ended everything I worked so god damned hard for .. gone... done.. But Mike sits here and tells me.. You are worth everything to me.. I am not going to loose you... I am here Becky .... Nice guys DO FINISH LAST and saves lives... I dont give two gay god damned rats asses about his past .. He nor I cant change it ... So why worry about it... I love you Mike ... Be good to yourselves