I am not your typical female. I lock my doors for your safety, not mine.

I been sitting here thinking .. three days .. I have had about enough...

so I am going to write it out. I moved to Denver Co.. to be with the man that shines the light in my blacken heart 5 years ago. I will live the life I deserve. Do I regret my past.. FUCK NO! why would I? I learned many lessons.. and still learning my lessons.

Now, I was raised with guys.. I prefer that thank you.. I cant stand my gender (very few women I can handle ) I am very used to most guys life style.. I learn much from all sorts of guys .. young and old no never mind to me... they dont bother me. Since I have lived here in this house with my soon to be and my two guy roommates I have to smile.. I am not your typical female...

I caught one of my roommate's masturbating in our game room(he had no shame apparently and want to get laid by me)... yes people I caught him... was i scarred for life? ...nope. (maybe if I have to have tons of sex with my soon to be to get that horrified image out of my head.) All I did was walk away like I never saw him .. my stomach was all sick feeling.. But it didnt bother me .. One because I get laid with the best man ever when ever I want.. and him... he such a fucking retarded idiot he cant laid if he even had one sitting there wanting to use him as a human dildo. But my idiot masturbating roommate's cousin (the cool roommate ) and my soon to be is not seeing it like I see it ... I know Idiot masturbating roommate's game... He so jealous of my soon to be.. I am the only female in the house and why cant my soon to be share god damned it??? LMAO. Two reasons .. One) I wouldn't touch the idiot roommate if my life depended on it(even when i was single not gonna happen).. even when I am drunk as fuck it wouldn't cross my fucking mind... two) not going to happen in my life time.... LOL his kind is the reason why I didnt have have sex for 2 years ....remember I learned my lessons????

There is anther fact why I wouldnt touch this  idiot masturbating roommate.. He is acting like a tweeker ... the worse fucking tweeker on this earth. He started to smoke "spice"(if you dont know what that is its fake weed that has the same properties as meth) three months ago and he gotten worse day by day.. He looks like a meth addicted he treats his children like shit and is going after my soon to be like a pit bull on rabies ... yeah to keep my soon to be in check is getting harder and harder day by day... So, tweeker idiot masturbating roommate has acted on upon himself that this is "his house" and is trying to treat everyone in this house as such ... he keeps telling his children such and it has finally gotten on my god damned nerves.. this fucktard has yet to pay rent on time(if ever pays it) and then act upon himself that he domanate over me of all people telling people I am the house bitch (mind you I have to clean up after him and his children constantly) his consistencies of his roller coaster mood swings has finally gotten me pissed the fuck off .. I tried to talk to this man  in my "small" voice telling not a good Idea to piss me off .. Not listening .. anywho day before we moved down to the basement ... he YELLED at my soon to be over a QUESTION and offer of help. So my soon to be had to over ride tweeker masturbating idiot roommate and build a dark room for a plant that need 24 hour of darkness .. Mind you my health is now in danger because of the fucking fucktard.. 2 hours in this room sent my asthma in full swing and my back legs and knees HATED ME... finally we get it finished.. I wake up to "we are taring down the dark room due to we are going down to the basement "(mind you we been begging Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate for this spot due to he sleeps upstairs (and masturbates) and so dose his children.. finally we got it??? yeah what?!) I LOST IT .. I woke up PISSED THE FUCK OFF! I said "THIS BULL SHIT!" So all day I helped my soon to be and Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate to move down all our stuff! In the end result I broke my upper hips my back is fucked up I sit here crying in pain at night when my soon to be is sleeping... thought it was just plane over this drama crap I can finally sit down stiars in nothing but a ICP t-shirt.. uhhh Nope! yesterday tweeker masturbating idiot roommate took it upon himself to "pick " the lock to my door and help himself to what the fuck ever.... Mind you this is not his first time trying to "peek in" my room while he thinks Mike and I are having sex or we are sleeping THIS IS THE THIRD TIME THIS FUCKTARD DONE IT TOO ME .. then when I thought I was fucking tweeking myself Mike (soon to be) comes home PISSED THE FUCK OFF and tell me (just woke up by then lol) that Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate called him WHILE AT HIS WORK and cursed him out so hard Mike just lost it at work... enough is enough ... shit hit the fan yesterday.. I mean Mike lost it kinda deal and I sat ther pissed that Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate BROKE in my room yet again .. Mike told our cool roommate EVERYTHING that is going on. the disbelief on our cool roommate and the feeling i got from cool roommate was PISSED... I went upstairs to clean up the filthy kitchen and plus to calm down ... then all I heard was fucking shit while cleaning ... and i blurted out "i am done mike, i am not comfortable here anymore .. we pay off cool roommate and I want to go home" that sent my cool roommate off like no ones business and well to cool down Mike and I went for a drive ...(got pulled over lmao cute ass female cop though and gave us a warning ) Our cool ass roommate went off on tweeker masturbating idiot roommate... (dont ever piss off an Mexican ) Our cool ass roommate told me if i ever feel uncomfortable in this house let him know and he will deal with it.You know I wish I was a fly on the wall yesterday ... He assured us that he not kicking us out (cool ass roommate) We came home little on edge and went down stiars and Mike slept while I felt like a tweeker myself and couldnt sleep (cant trust a tweeker masturbating idiot roommate) Mike woke up this morning and I am awake.. he looked at me shocked as hell I am still awake at 7:00am and I told him i am paranoid and go get my 10 year old pepper spray(instently i went to sleep by then) .. so he did and just worried about me ...  So sitting here by my bed is my prepper spray people...

if that mother fucker comes down here for other then getting his fucking shit out of our plant room. I am going to spray that fucker bad .. I am not messing around then I will make him wish he never breathed ... I am going to fuck the fucker up .. I dont give two god damned rats asses who the fuck he is .. I will loose it.I know me.. I lock my god damned doors for you all's safety not mine.. I have three black belts and I tell you what I proven that I can kick the living shit out of my beloved in front (Mike gotten too drunk and thought he could piss me off) of my roommates and then before that kick the living shit out of Mikes cousin for trying to take advantage of me.. I am not messing around ... Tweeker masturbating idiot roommate has anther thing coming if he fucks with me.. I had enough.. I will loose it no man will ever treat me like shit again. I wake up with the instinct of killing someone.. I was RAISED that way (remember grew up around men) and that never dies.. I have to tell my brain that certain people are not a threat .. ask my soon to be how hard it is to wake me up with out looking at him like hes a target. I have almost killed my ex husband for going after my son and I did this in my sleep .. he almost died.. So with my background and such do you dare to wake me up or try to brake into my area?? if you where smart enough you would leave me the fuck alone and let me wake up with pure silence. Be good to yourself