I get asked a lot about this is word.. Cheating.. Cheating is a very common action.. and here is my definition of cheating: "if i have to find out my man fucked anther woman by someone else.. and he dose not have the balls to tell me..YOU ARE CHEATING" and I will act upon it accordingly. Years of watching and studying humans .. I still see it as I see it .. Jealously, is also goes along with cheating... something I do not have lol Seriously.. It has been proven that males mostly do not have the instinct to keep one female (or male) they need to populate more then one female (or male)... We has the population are TRAINED to keep one person.. think about it .. Before Christ was born, matter of fact when he was born.. Multiples partners from his area .. harems for generations... until we gotten more insecure in ourselves.. We are taught to be with just one person.. mostly women have this thought.. men just fallow because they are either afraid of their females or are also trained to be with just one... Now ask yourself.. HOW MANY PARTNERS have you had before the one you are currently with? Me 10 and one nighters.. I cant remember... I have been in many settings that have more then one females and I would have huge amounts of fun with it.. currently I cant remember the name for it.. But its a group of people that just have sex in a group. My religion says it clearly sexual relations is a gift not a right.. SHARE IT...
So, now thats defined by me cheating is a control word.. I do not control my soon to be.. He trys to make me mad now days.. so he tells me he wants to a club and find a strange (had to ask him what the fuck that meant) and he said "strange pussy" I said .. COOL leave me the fuck alone, you know the rules, good luck, and have fun... He looks at me like "wtf is wrong with you?!" LOL nothing.. I dont see cheating as something that should be in any relationship.. again I am not a jealous person... I can play the card real well, and better and a lot classier then most people.. But bottom line .. naah ... go ahead.. I know who you love ,I know who you go to bed with at the end of day.. and well if I dont want sex, or cant. so why should I deprive my man the thing that he enjoys a lot... I simply cant do it... I strive to give the best very best to my soon to be husband. He asks me a lot "if i bring home a female can we have a three some" I said "if i am in the mood.. sure " He is so not used to that.. His ex had it in her head.. he cant find anther woman but she can find every dick on the block fuck it more then once and shuv it in his face.. so he is dead on me not having anther man (really why should I? I am completely happy with him) and he will "wait". here is my problem with that.. Men.. are asswholes.dicks and just not fun to be with if they dont get enough sexual relations.. so if i cant have sex.. WHY SO WHY do i want to keep putting up with that shit from him.. shit Christ go fuck someone .. get it outa your god damned system.. Because I am damn sick of your shit.. I cant nor am I in the mood to put up... So he is now getting confidence and pride that I dont give a shit if he goes get laid by some other woman...
Now Jealousy ... This word is a emotion EVERYONE has.. some are more prone to this emotion then others.. and there is very few people like myself do not give in this emotion... Brake down Jealousy people.. go look it up and BRAKE IT DOWN.. Its a insecurity in one self and feels or acts upon it... I am very aware of this emotion and many things can trigger this emotion.. ITS NORMAL! But when you are with someone you truly love.. This is an emotion that needs to be checked and controled EVERYDAY.. remind yourself who ever you are with they love you because of what ever that attractted them too you.. So why get Jealous if your man/woman looks at anther hot female/male? what the fuck is your problem ??? remind yourself its your insecurity that is making you act upon what ever... also Jealously can be VERY HARMFUL in your relationships .. if you are insecure with yourself DO NOT GO OUT WITH SOMEONE.. because that will affect your relationship! Jealousy is also anther control trigger... don't give in and relax damn it ... If your relationship is meant to be.. LET IT HAPPEN! relax... If you cant control the action that caused you to get jealous in the fist place.. I advise you to get help for it... end your relationship...
Here is why I tell you this... I have a busted up right eye socket.. currently a metal plate is holding up my right eye socket.. the right side upper teeth are kicked in I dont have a right front tooth... why? because a guy I known most of my life I thought he wouldnt hurt me (my mistake) gotten jealous of the fact I was happy (yes stupid) he came after me and hit me in the face broke my eye socket .. then kicked me in the teeth... BECAUSE HE WAS JEALOUS!!!!! He couldnt control me with his own insecurities !!!
Oh it gets better.. I thought i was over the asswhole prick and went out with anther man.. I helped him threw difficult times and we became invalved I only wanted him as a fuck buddy and he kept telling people we where together... I said fine (this will be a year ago with this last dumb fuck, and 2 years from the ass munch that punch me in the eye) I went along with it and shit was fine for a long while ... he started to go down hill FAST (mind you i dont cheat on my men nor he dose not cheat on his women .. cheating as we never stepped out and fucked other people) when I started to talk to my best friend... mind you my best friend is black man that is one of my ex's. and then he HIT ME started to choke me .. he said i was fucking my ex.. umm no hes a ex for a reason, why should i go back to that.... then this started to happen more frequent when he stopped smoking his weed and started to drink more.. then one morning (3am) I started talking to myself (usually do in the mornings call me weird) and he woke up and fucking came after me with KNIVES! I was DONE no man will ever make feel lower then them ever again.. I SNAPPED... I was waiting for it ... and he came towards me and put me in a head lock and I used everything, I got outa of it .. then he came after me and I side kicked him and BROKE HIS RIBS.. this man is bigger then me and out weighs me.. I have 3 black belts people.. I had about enough of this shit.. I broke his ribs and started to beat on him... with a glass tube that is solid... I was done.. this man will die... then he popped up and came after me with two knifes ... I looked at him dead in the eye and told him "you got one chance to hit me mother fucker and then you will die slowly and painfuly" he stepped forward and what happened amazed me LOL I dropped kicked him in the face.. he hit the floor and I almost killed him with the ass whoopin he will soon not forget. I had to get outa there so I ran out .. he was fallowing me and I needed to call the cops.. he wouldnt leave me alone he grabbed my long hair and I round housed him and he hit the house hard... I dont remember much but i do remember by the time it was said and done I was shaking so hard and trying to control my anger.. the cops showed up lol and told me I needed to clam the fuck down .. I dont remember this part but I know the cops they sent me there reports .. then he WENT TO JAIL.. after the hospital... his ribs where shattered his jaw was broken in 4 different places and his nose was shattered. cracked his forhead... I also broke his back in two different places. I told you guys this man will die, or wished he was dead.
So now.. Jealousy is a very evil emotion..CONTROL IT... or you will end up where i was.. I dont take out my past on my soon to be husband but he is very aware what happened to me and he very careful on certain things and trigger words and actions... I love him with all my heart and I tell you what I will die to him and he for me... be good to yourself ....
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